Can not nail it !

Seems like the time since november last year just went by with nothing purposeful. At times life has felt like so much was happening. In retrospect this year has been full of realisations and patience. Why does it seem that there is someone up there who keeps doing things to make me change my pace, ask me to take it slow, stop and think. Cant say i find it comfortable and cant say i am happy in general, just know that i cant seem to be able to nail it on the head!